An ode to the lost soul

Today is what I call d-day. They I made a decision to extend my own existence. I cannot blame a single person for this moment. Doing such would be true ignorance. None the less I still feel that I had something to do with it. None the less it is an experience. its funny too, I told my friend the story of the last girl I loved and he told me that only I and George Costanza would have that happen to them. But I must raise my head beyond the experience for these feelings are temporary. This blog has turned into my own psychotic sessions.
Meghan – You were the first of many and I learned so much. I have such anger towards you but no ill will. You taught me what I don’t want and I thank you
Laura – I will always remember the night where you cried on my shoulder for a lost friend. I wish I treated you with more care and didn’t throw you away like I did.
Allison – You were awesome. I enjoyed spending time with you. You let me see the ability to just have fun.
Erin – How could I ever for forget you. You showed me exactly what I wanted in a wife. You let me drop my guard and accept me
Lorrann – I threw away one of the most special people that walk this earth and I am sorry. Your deserve the best and that is all you should expect.
Catlin – You were my first kiss. What an amazing kiss it was. I will never forget you and fith element. Please forgive me.

I could go on but I am scared of how might read this. I have had my heart ripped out by women and you know who you are, and I have done the same. I guess it is just the way things balance themselves out. I don’t know what the future has for me but this is my wish:

I wish the best for
The one I love
The one I have loved
And The one I will love
May your dreams truly come true
For you have given me more than dreams can offer


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